screw my laptop.
i don't know why but it's fucking hanging up on me again. over and over again. i bet i tried like more than 7times just to get it to start up. and i bet later while i'm halfway watching my videos it would hang one more time.
gawd.
i am sounding so much like the protagonist in the book i'm reading now. a rebel. girl(yeah duh).
books do influence people, right?
anw i'm not here to shit about how my laptop left me huffing and cursing, so i'll just start this post again.

*exhales*
ok today is 18july. saturday.
the whole week was hectic, as usual.
monday was uhhh lemme try to remember.. boring?
yeah with all the different subjects squeezed into one day -.-
it just gets better and better, doesn't it?
tuesday was uhhh..i can't really remember anymore. sorry i really am getting STM already ><
anw my life is as boring as a plain sheet of paper, so no worries there're not going to be anything really interesting except me complaning what i don't like and fangirl about AMNOS :D
anw.
wednesday was the start of orals for our class, OMGGGGG O-LEVELS.
mine was on thursday,so yetlin was up first.
i helped her practise, and god was i scared the next day.
couldn't even sleep well.
lay on bed the night before my orals, and thought about a lot of things.
the sun, the moon, the clouds, the stars~
okay i was joking *grins* >P
thinking sometimes really hurts.
in my bed i was pondering, over and over again.
what would he be doing right now?
why was i living here,lying on this bed right now?
who would i become when i grow up?
when would i grow up?
why does these things always happens?
why can't anyone just steer far away from me when they obviously know i don't like it?
why can't life just be normal and boring as it is for others is?
why can't i have a happy family?
why must i live here anyway?
why do i have to tolerate all these things?
why can't i just grow up sooner?

and i didn't have any answers for these questions.
maybe sometimes things just happen,for a reason or no reason.
i don't know why and i bet i cannot find all the answers right now, but someday I WILL.
i WANT to find out the answers to these questions. something in me just gets irritated when i don't have answers to questions. unless i'm not interested to know about them.

time passed, and the next day came.
thursday 16july.
GAWDDDDDDD WAS I FREAKED OUT.
had pe, binomial test, and then oral.
i wasn't sure i could go through the rest of the day, but eventually i did.
pe was okay, anddd uh i suck at jumping and catching balls so don't mind me if i just stone :x
and binomial! i was freaking happy that i finished an A maths test paper for the first time(at least that's what i think) ^^
wooo. don't care whether i got all correct a not. just happy like a blithering idiot. ha ha.
orallllllllllllllll. zzzz.
i was the fourth.. and wooo i busted some words on the reading passage, but after giving it a thought, i think i did pretty well for my conversation^^
well pardon the language and all, i think i should be okay barh~
at least i hope so.
but anw just damn relieved that oral's over. :D

friday was okay, had chem test.
oooo i finished and realised at the end of the day that i made stupid mistakes. again.
arghhhh.
but hopefully i can pass :x
hmmms, after that school bell rang.
stayed back to do maths proj, but in the end we didn't do anything together.
and i was so riled up to finish it by tmr. tsk tsk tsk.
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but anw,went home and slacked, as usual.
i did do my homework!
at night, anyway.
wow just realised i didn't finish any homework except for physics.
and my physics suck.
ah well.

today woke up early and did tuition work. arghhh i hate doing compre. especially if it's chinese -.-
but nvm. i got a sense of accomplishment when i finished it ^^
used comp, and the tragedy starts. it just doesn't want me to use it, does it?
whatever.
did a little of the maths proj, omg i think we did it quite well!
and i feel very guilty for not doing anything at all except changing the order of the posts and edditing the profile :x
so now i wanna relax and enjoy my life~
LOLS sounds so cliche.
hmmm, okay off to watching videos and fanigrling, wish me luck in handling my laptop and pray for me that it won't hang, so this girl who is on the verge on being depraved(as a resultance of not using the internet for ONE WHOLE WEEK) can enjoy her time fangirling and doing random stuff :D
thank you and hope i haven't bored you into reading my whole post, which today seems a bit too long but i'm chatty today and feeling really random(i don't even know what i'm talking about) and oh, probably not going online because i think that's one of the reasons for the lag-gism.
jya ne :D